What’s Next For Me

I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about how I wanted to share this part of my life. Believe it or not, I’m actually a very reserved person; I keep my personal life extremely private. Consequently, the idea of making some sort of big Instagram announcement with updates on my life has never felt comfortable for me. 

There are a lot of things I haven’t directly addressed. I’ve never shared why I came back to Australia, why I’ve been here for so long, when I’m going home to NYC, where I’m going to school, and what is next for me in general. 

But I feel as though the time has come for me to open up a little more. I feel as though it’s time to let you know a little bit about what is going on. 

After deep consideration and prayer, I have decided to take a gap year before starting at The King’s College in NYC next fall. 

I’ll be honest, the idea of taking a gap year was never on my radar. At all. It was never something I could see myself doing, and so when my parents first encouraged me to consider it, I completely shut it down. But then I did begin to properly give it thought. I spent hours in the Word, watching Ted Talks, journaling, reading, and praying until I realized that this is exactly what I am supposed to do. 

I have huge FOMO. Like, it’s to the point where I make my mom take me with her to the grocery store just because I don’t want to miss out. Yeah. Weird. But it’s true. And I have this lingering desire to make the most of every moment. I have this constant urge to live my life to the absolute fullest, in every way possible. 

My original hesitation to the whole gap year idea lay in that I felt like I would be missing out on all these things my friends would be doing at college. I soon realized however that everything I was scared of missing out on would still be waiting for me. I found comfort in the knowledge that this isn’t a “this or that” type situation. This is a “this AND that”. 

I’ve spent the past 9 months healing from some pretty heavy stuff. I am battered and bruised, but I am on the mend. I’ve been given this incredible gift in restoration, and as much as my type-A self longs for the days of structure and a fixed schedule, the last thing I want to do is cut this time short. As I said: I have this lingering desire to make the most of every moment. I want to live in this moment, not skip to the next. 

So I’m taking a year to be more in the moment than I have ever been. I get to be young and selfish. I get to grow and learn and live freely. I get to set myself up for the rest of my life. 

My pursuit of education is far greater than a degree. This has no expiration date for me. I plan to spend the rest of my life chasing knowledge. 

I deeply value my education. I want to make sure I give it all I’ve got, and I feel as though a purposeful year off will allow me to step back into a school environment with my best foot forward. 

I am not one to share all the details of what’s ahead, I would much prefer to just show you. So that’s what I’ll do. What I will say is that this is much more than just an excuse for a good time. Sure, I’m always seeking a good time, but there is so much more going on that you probably won’t hear about until this time next year when I break it all down. 

I know that this year ahead is the year of my dreams. And I could not be more thankful. 

I am thankful for my school. For their support and encouragement in this decision. King’s is perfect for me in every way, and I cannot wait for what lies ahead for me there.

I am thankful for my friends. They are always rooting for me, and I can feel their love even on the other side of the world. 

I am thankful for my family. Every day. They are what matters most to me, and they are too good to be true. 

This is just the beginning. 

All my love. 


M. xo.


1 Comment

  1. Your great auntyRobyn
    August 25, 2019 / 1:53 am

    Enjoy this year . Education and knowledge and learning, dont have an age limit, and you’ ll be all ready to start up again next year. I’m sure that being in Ausdie land a bit longer, wont be that bad.

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